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May 1, 1853

May 1st

How was I going to commence the sentence begun day before yesterday. I known not. I was then called away and could not return. Since the squally afternoon then mentioned we have had a fine trade wind carrying us constantly from ten to eleven knots on our way. We enjoy this change most decidedly. Hope again revives and a short voyage to San Francisco is again thought of. May not these hopes be dashed to the ground.

It is Sunday and the day for seeing ships – so far, no appearance of one. It would be delightful to pass and speak to a home vessel, but the exciting scenes of last Sunday cannot be expected. It would have to be a strange case that would make Williams stop his vessel such a day as this, which is in every respect perfect. Would that my heart and thoughts were more in harmony with its beauties, but alas, I almost despair, so different are they from what I would have them. The will, desire to do right is with me, but the power seems not to be mine.

Since writing the above I have been listening to my husband as he read the morning service and some chapters from the Bible. I admire the Episcopal Service much and it is excellent for persons situated as we are, but I must say that when on shore if I attend that Church much I weary of the sameness.

Williams has just made his observation. The result 137 miles – thirteen less than day before. I trust our wind will not lessen; and now I must write letters or rather add to them.

May 4, 1853

What are the “Letters of Junius”?
Who was Junius?
What was “The Conspiracy of Pontiac”?

May 4th

A fine day, rather warm wind carrying us six or seven knots.

We are now about one hundred miles from the equator. If this wind lasts we shall soon be in our own quarter of the globe. Something of a homelike feeling will I know from past experiences take possession of me. Then how eagerly shall we count the miles to San Francisco, and our letters and papers from home. I already feel restless for letters, particularly Molly’s.

This morning I commenced the second volume of Gibbon. I read the book slowly, not that I am not deeply interested but because I wish to read it thus – reading a little every day or two and letting my thoughts occasionally dwell upon it fixes it most strongly in my memory. It is a real pleasure to read Gibbon. His diction is so rich, clear, lofty and flowing – a book one can read aloud with ease and pleasure. Would that his style have some beneficial effect upon mine, which I believe is overflowing with faults. Williams is constantly, in conversation, pointing them out to me. I feel almost disheartened sometimes. I try to mend but my faults appear too fixed, and poor me too thoughtless and careless.

Williams and myself have been quite interested lately with the vexed question concerning the identity of Junius, having read two articles in the Littell, each advancing different and to me, new claimants for that honor. One a long sole article introducing Thomas, Lord Lyttleton to the reader as Junius; the other no less a personage than Lord Chatham. Williams and I gave the preference to the first. I have never read the letters of Junius but have read a good deal about them and feel much interested on the subject. I intended to have purchased it when last in New York but forgot. Must do so the first opportunity.

I wish from my heart I had something to write about but all things go on so quickly and same-like that one’s thoughts even seem to stagnate and this warm weather does not tend to mend matters. I may be alone in this stupidity. At any rate I must except Williams for today, he having just shown me a letter or rather part of one written this morning wherein is expressed in lovely terms both indignation, pleasure and approbation – the first against Dr. Parker, author of a most shameful sermon on the death of Webster – the last, awarded to Professor Tappan, author of “A Step from the New to the Old World” and to Mr. Parkman, author of the “Conspiracy of Pontiac”.

Yesterday I wrote a miserable letter to Mary Moore, I would that it had been one of my best – honor it, or none will have to answer. Since leaving home I have written many letters and am most heartily tired of the business and go to it now in a most spiritless way. Yet there are five more I must write soon. I would like to have written besides finishing off all the others. I only wish I felt in the spirit for a letter now. Williams will have it that I love to write letters. I suppose because I have to write so many, but it is no such thing. I love to scribble and that is all.

May 6, 1853

May 6th

Have just finished writing a long letter to Georgie. It is long since I wrote him. I feel sad when I think how long. What pleasant times we used to have together at home. Georgie was then my companion in pretty much all things – kind and good-hearted was he – dear brother. I hope we shall meet again ere long.

While at dinner today passed a brig bound southward. We were pretty near. I left the table to take a look when nearest her.

Yesterday we passed the Equator while at dinner and are now going with a gentle fair wind to San Francisco. The weather is delightful but we must expect warmer for a few days. And now for a fine long day.

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